INDEX

Bird of Paradise

Butterflies my Alibi

Camera Eye

castaway by choice

Chocolate Man

Constant Confrontation

Dashavatara

The discovery of the Interior

The Double Role

An ever changing Stream

Everything Changing Around Me

The Final Glow of Life

The Final Exit

Fountain of Thirst

A Hopeless Dreamer

I, Me and Myself

I just wonder

Kanya Avatar

Kanya Sahasranama

Life through a Pinhole

The Meaning of my Existence

Metamorphosis of a Bookworm

A Monster named Desire

My Satisfaction

Painted Soul

Past presents me to the Future

The path less travelled

Reflecting on me

Reflection on my life

Same World Different Universe

Sampling Trip

The Search for my Identity

Searching for the Meaning

Seeing the invisible

The Serenity of Emptiness

Snow wants to fall on Sahara

Spring Cleaning

Under water Volcano

Valentine’s Escape

In the wee Hour of the Morning

 

 

The Meaning of my Existence

There was a time
When I looked around me
To see nothing but void
As if this life was not worth living
It was open and uninterrupted
Like the sky but with clouds of
Sorrow and more sorrows

I questioned my existence
Why am I here?
For nothing else but to suffer
I can acutely feel
The hurt, the pain and the remorse
Of unfulfilled dreams
In my stomach
As if being cut with a knife

There was a time
When the words couldn’t dare
To speak up
My feelings
My desperation
My unfulfilled wishes
As if my path was a downhill
Self-immolation in making.

But I am wise now
Wise now to know
The meaning of my existence
The essence of my existence
The worth of my existence
I am posed to make a wonderful gift
From me
To me.
To make the life
A precious present to me
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babru
November 1 2002